Summer-I

It has been a long summer. Long and painful. I went to India in spring and spent over a month. Grieving and living in Ashram. It was hot but my stay in areas was OK as i wasn't exposed to heat as much. Bikaner was hot only in terms of family politics and people i didn't want to see. And Ashram was OK as it was air-conditioned. I know Ashram and air-condtioner do not go hand in hand, but it is a place where i could at least spend time away from the hotch-potch of family matters. I was away from my kids that was ripping me apart.
Every day was meditation and Yoga and lot of treatments for my body and mind. I was also getting a few training session with the Dr. on campus to help expand my knowledge of Yoga teaching skills. It was strange how i slept for my first 3 days. I was fatigued mentally and physically. I had jet lag and the greatest pain of loosing a sibling unexpectedly. Many days were a daze. I barely got a chance to talk to my kids. Or to anyone else in India. I was fasting and my days were spent Meditating, walking, attending yoga classes. Rest of the days were in the treatment area.

It was a place away from every possible streets i spend my life. There was no way of getting even a tooth paste. My option to be able to shop was 10-15 miles away and it would take me an hour to reach travelling a primitive Jeep. Not that i was missing anything. But the fact that i wasn't able to get up and drive myself anywhere used to knaw at me. i missed driving and be able to do things for myself. Serice was fantastic. Staff was extremely polite. I had missed the polite humble service of my home state for 20 yrs. It was great to be able to talk in my mother tongue and have fun with the local people as well as staff. During my stay i was trying to get some relief on my rotator cuff and my mind. I felt better with my mind but the shoulder didn't get any relief. So i decided to get the surgery scheduled ASAP.
As i was preparing for the surgery i was planning my garden and planting it too. I cleaned up kids winter clothes and putting in summer clothes. i had a lot of things to do and i spent my time back form India planning to get ready to do nothing for 2-3 months. I got in the surgery and experienced the most painful part of my life physically. I can't take pain-killers and so i had to tolerate most of the pain awake. After 3-4 days i realised i was asking my 11 yr old do a lot of things for me. Soi decided to send her for a wonderful and fun filled trip to London. She stayed with my brother and mooched around the locality! As she was away i experienced the most tough time in my recent memory. In couple of weeks i got Patty to work for me to help me for 3-4 hours a day which was always 4-5 hours a day. She is a blessing for me. I had big relief and survived through my tough days. I started driving in 2 weeks and then it became better. Shoulder was getting better and i started therapy three times a week. I am still undergoing therapy..................